I have finally got rid of my blades. Very happy me ^^ And I feel so much better for it. I'm gonna take a good look at my life and make some decisions about who gets to be in it, not that people care (hah) but yeah. Not gonna waste my time on people who don't deserve it. I have realised I'm ok with being who I am. Hell, I'm proud of who I am (thank you Lady Gaga) and it's about time I felt that way really. 

So fuck you to anyone who hates me, I stopped caring quite some time ago :)

Also I love Sam ahaha <3

I'm a Goddamn Superstar ✯

Aaaaaah, I love my friends to pieces :')

I can't stop thinking about her. It's driving me mad. I don't know what to do.

Time for a nice selfish little rant I think.
Why the fuck do I care so much about people who barely give a shit about me? I want to help my friends so fucking much but when I'm upset its like it doesn't matter. I suppose it's my fault really. I hold it in and let 'er rip and then people think I'm crazy but I'm not crazy yet and then they avoid doing that again like the fucking plague. And when they do talk to me I either have picked a bad time to vent or I just get :/ faces at me which isn't really a conversation. I'm lonely, bored and hell I'm selfish (but who isn't) and I fucking need someone to talk to once in a while for a proper conversation. I try so damn hard to get people to trust me and open up cuz I want to help them I just wish someone would try that hard for me. Then again, I'm just not worth it.

Sometimes I look at you and wonder when you'll realise I'm lying.
Then I see how happy you are, and I hope to God you never do.

I miss you already..