Time for a nice selfish little rant I think.
Why the fuck do I care so much about people who barely give a shit about me? I want to help my friends so fucking much but when I'm upset its like it doesn't matter. I suppose it's my fault really. I hold it in and let 'er rip and then people think I'm crazy but I'm not crazy yet and then they avoid doing that again like the fucking plague. And when they do talk to me I either have picked a bad time to vent or I just get :/ faces at me which isn't really a conversation. I'm lonely, bored and hell I'm selfish (but who isn't) and I fucking need someone to talk to once in a while for a proper conversation. I try so damn hard to get people to trust me and open up cuz I want to help them I just wish someone would try that hard for me. Then again, I'm just not worth it.